After we laid mum down in the grave on March 29 2017, I sat on the sofa that I used to sleep on watching over her for 30 days before this day. It was the same couch she napped on for many years. I remembered having this feeling that I could not describe in one […]Read more "2018, I am here and visible!"
I often found my Mum sitting down, her eyes were locked on something. I really didn’t want to disturb her most times when I saw this. Yet, a few times, I’d approach her, sat next to her, and I’d ask – what are you thinking, Mama? 100 percent of the time she’d look […]Read more "Can I forget when I can’t remember?"
On Dec 31st 2015, somewhere in the air between Dubai and Zurich, I decided to follow my heart, which is to take 5 months off, go to Indonesia and be with my Mum, as she was recovering her health. I was excited and nervous at the same time, as I felt so strongly that I […]Read more "The beauty of dementia"
I came back to Bandung today after being away for 10 days. I was in Singapore and Jakarta – to take care of my self, which means uninterrupted sleep and potential business discussions. I was so happy to see my Mum again yet at the same time, feeling emotional as she looks so fragile. I spent the […]Read more "Making unfamiliar familiar"
Something wonderful happened today. I had an appointment at Genius Bar at the Apple shop to fix my iphone’s camera. When asked to leave my phone, my Genius girl asked me the code to access my phone. I gave it to her and I said “this is the date when my dad passed away 3 […]Read more "Loving stranger"
Many people choose to live their lives in a path that continuously includes a romantic relationship. Some others not. I am one of the latter. It actually was my choice, an unconscious one, until about 5 years ago. My late Dad said something so simple and profound to me in 2010. Kindly and with a smile, he […]Read more "Finding ME….(not Nemo)"
yes, indeed. I am enough. I am beautiful, powerful, happy and joyful as I am NOW!Read more "I.am.enough."